I am back once again! This could be a long one!

I know, I know, it's been forever and a day since I've posted. Okay, well not FOREVER, but long enough. School is going good, I'm only going half time this semester which, I now know, was a really good choice. At the beginning of the semester, when signing up for classes, I wasn't so sure that it was the right choice, but it was the only option I had other than not going at all and taking a semester off. When I go full time (which is 12 credits) I just feel swamped. Like I can't do anything else because I don't have time. I also work 16 hours a week for the same college that I attend, and I babysit 2 full days a week for my aunt's kids.

I am a people pleaser and I try to make everyone happy no matter what I have to do to do it. I want to make my mom, grandma, and the rest of my family happy by going to school and finishing my degree. I want to make my friends happy, so I hang out with them when ever they ask, even if I shouldn't because I don't really have the money. Sarah and Liz (the two friends I hang out with most) live about 35 miles from me, so everytime I go to hang out, it costs me quite a bit. I don't know why, but I just feel like I have to make everyone happy. Most of the time it's what makes me happy. I enjoy to see others happy (who really likes to see people unhappy? I know, there are cruel people out there who like to see people in pain and squirm and such.)

This weekend for instance, Liz was gone to Chicago all weekend, so I was left to find something to do with myself for an entire weekend. Liz and I are best friends and have been for about 5 years now. We usually hang out all weekend, and when I say all weekend I do mean ALL WEEKEND! We are together from the time she gets out of school on Friday until late Sunday night. It's just what we do, we are partners in crime. Well, you get the point. So...she didn't leave for Chicago until early Saturday morning so I headed "into town" (which is what I call it since I don't consider my little hometown a town at all) to hang out with Liz. So, back to my people pleasing. I went into town to hang out with Liz and we hung out with another one of our friends that stopped over for a little bit. While I was at Liz's, Sarah called and wanted to see Murphy, so I went over to her house for a little bit. Now, sometimes I don't think before I do things and I just went over to Sarah's as soon as she called and asked me to stop over. Thinking back on the choice I made, I probably hurt Liz's feelings. I mean I WAS at her house and we WERE hanging out, but I'm with her every weekend so I guess I thought she would understand.

Anyways, on Saturday I decided I wanted to hang out with my family (something I very much enjoy). We had been planning our annual sledding party, and it just so happenend that Saturday was the day. PERFECT!! So I slept in (yes Murphy actually let me sleep in! I was shocked myself!!) and then I went to the sledding party. It was an all day event. Food on the grill, snacks, soda, campfire and all. Eventhough I didn't go sledding, it was fun to watch all of the kids and even the grown ups sledding. I took pictures and videos and just visited with everyone. It was a really good time.

Sunday was another day where I was into people pleasing again. Sarah is going to nationals in Colorado Springs, CO for boxing for a week. After her trip to nationals, she is flying back into Milwaukee for a few hours and flying out to Florida for a spring break type trip for another week. So...I was asked to help her pack for both trips, and I happily agreed. Now, this doesn't sound like a big deal, a friendly gesture. We went shopping to pick up some last minute things for her trip and she was getting crabby(I was then getting crabby because I thought I was being the nice friend by helping and then I was getting crabbed at for it). I then offered to do the dishes in her sink! Why you ask?! Because they had been there for a long time and she was going to throw them away! You shouldn't thrown a bunch of perfectly good dishes away just because you don't want to wash them. What a waste of money! In the evening we wanted to do something nice for Sarah's mom, so we brought food out to her house and cooked her a nice meal of Chicken Breasts on the grill, corn, and salad. It was really nice. I brough Murphy with so he could play with Sarah's little brothers Eli and Jacob. They just love him to pieces.

Like I said before, I don't know why I feel the need to people please, but I do it. I want to make everyone happy all the time and I know it's not possible. Most of the time, what makes other people happy, makes me happy, I don't know. Lately I am just so confused. One of my friends, I will not mention the name, likes girls. This doesn't bother me, it truely doesn't, but she confuses me. Sometimes she says things like "babe" or "hun", or says she misses me (which normally I wouldn't think twice about, but considering the circumstances, I do tend to think about it a little more). It just makes me wonder what she means, I am just confused. I am not closed minded, and I have never had any experiences with girls, and I know that people say that when you're young you experiment and things, but I just don't know. I might be bisexual, I'm not really sure. It is so weird to type that, because I have never even said that before.

Well, potty training with Murphy has been going pretty good. He has been to the vet 3 times since I've had him and he's gotten 2 shots. He is a very good little boy, hyper almost all the time, but he's a puppy. He loves kids, and loves being by me. He is my little sidekick. When I take a shower, he sits in the bathroom and waits for me to get done, and when I sleep, he sleeps with me. When I have to put him in his cage it makes me sad and I just don't like it at all. I wish I could keep him out all day and he wouldn't pee in the house. It'll be so nice when he is fully house trained/potty trained (whichever you would like to call it). So, there has been a request for new puppy pics and you better bet that I will come through for you on this one Hallie! So here they are! I have tons, so if you would like even more, I could email them to you. Just ask!!!

This one is Murphy and his "girlfriend" Molly. He decided that he wanted to sleep on the big dog pillow. One that is about 10 times his size. Guess he thinks he is a big dog.

This is Murphy when I took him to work with me one day. He just poses for the camera so nice!

This is Murphy at work with mom. He fell asleep on my desk calendar.

Here is my little boy posing again! He loves his little camo t-shirt.

This is Murphy and Sarah. He is her "baby".

This is Murphy with his Bob the Builder glasses a.k.a. beer goggles on.

And last but not least, this is Murphy with Auntie Liz. He is quite the ladies man, let me tell you!

Hope you enjoy!!!